Stevi's Storied Life

*wiggles eyebrows * A post shared by legally Stevi Rae Alsdorf (@stevi_rae2008) on Jan 29, 2017 at 10:50am PST

I'm too sleep to care. Tequula. I'm naked in my sister's squeaky old bed. They let her have mine when she moved into her own house. Hey. What was wrong with my 12 year old mattress,  stupid bruise bearing furniture?

Can't say what I need to so I'm hiding under cover You love me like a sister so I love you like a brother Slap me in the face and I'll hit you with some mace I'm tired of all these pills-- please get off my case I'm out for a date but I can't relate I'll tell no one the whole story I'll tell NO ONE I'll tell NO ONE It's all there if you want to read it I won't repeat it I'll tell NO ONE I'll tell NO ONE Tell it to your mama if you want to start some drama Don't tell it to your yogi just assume that asana Tell it to a shrink it won't change what you think Tell it when you vomit in your bathroom sink Tell it to the moon and you'll land among the stars Tell it to the cars and the people in the bars Tell it to the screen like you're in a lucid dream Tell it to yourself so you'll say what you mean!

I get the feeling that people may be wondering about my alternate name on Facebook. I didn't legally change it from Stevi Rae Alsdorf to Lilith Elizabeth Gray. I adopted the name as a means of identifying with my mystical side. Lilith is portrayed in mythology as the first wife of Adam who failed in her duties, became a demon queen and in some stories, eventually the wife of God himself. She's viewed as nocturnal mostly,  a trait I share. I admire the transformative nature of her lore and always liked the name. I got Elizabeth from my paternal grandmother's middle name and Gray from my mentor, who took me under his wing and enabled me to break free from a restrictive, toxic relationship, go my own way and meet one of my best friends. The full name is representative of my true nature in tarot, the Queen of Swords. Stevi is the baddest chick on the block, according to Urban Dictionary, but Lilith sees more in her than that. I needed to create an identity that would empower...

Here's some good advice I've received over the past couple of years, words of wisdom: "Don't beat yourself up and don't let anyone else beat you up either." We all make mistakes.  Learn from them and move forward with your head held high.  It's no use to be down about something that you can't change.  "Never use the words 'I don't know.'" If you don't know how to answer a certain question, be silent and find your peace and the words you need will come. Obviously this doesn't really apply to math questions. It's more of a conversational technique, whether inward or outward. "Once certain things are revealed, you won't forget them or un-know them." Ever feel like you've had a life-changing epiphany? Have you discovered something about the world or yourself and it was so great that you feared you'd forget it all and wake up as if from a dream? I have.  I've gone to sleep for over a year wit...