Stevi's Storied Life

Can't say what I need to so I'm hiding under cover You love me like a sister so I love you like a brother Slap me in the face and I'll hit you with some mace I'm tired of all these pills-- please get off my case I'm out for a date but I can't relate I'll tell no one the whole story I'll tell NO ONE I'll tell NO ONE It's all there if you want to read it I won't repeat it I'll tell NO ONE I'll tell NO ONE Tell it to your mama if you want to start some drama Don't tell it to your yogi just assume that asana Tell it to a shrink it won't change what you think Tell it when you vomit in your bathroom sink Tell it to the moon and you'll land among the stars Tell it to the cars and the people in the bars Tell it to the screen like you're in a lucid dream Tell it to yourself so you'll say what you mean!

I get the feeling that people may be wondering about my alternate name on Facebook. I didn't legally change it from Stevi Rae Alsdorf to Lilith Elizabeth Gray. I adopted the name as a means of identifying with my mystical side. Lilith is portrayed in mythology as the first wife of Adam who failed in her duties, became a demon queen and in some stories, eventually the wife of God himself. She's viewed as nocturnal mostly,  a trait I share. I admire the transformative nature of her lore and always liked the name. I got Elizabeth from my paternal grandmother's middle name and Gray from my mentor, who took me under his wing and enabled me to break free from a restrictive, toxic relationship, go my own way and meet one of my best friends. The full name is representative of my true nature in tarot, the Queen of Swords. Stevi is the baddest chick on the block, according to Urban Dictionary, but Lilith sees more in her than that. I needed to create an identity that would empower...

Here's some good advice I've received over the past couple of years, words of wisdom: "Don't beat yourself up and don't let anyone else beat you up either." We all make mistakes.  Learn from them and move forward with your head held high.  It's no use to be down about something that you can't change.  "Never use the words 'I don't know.'" If you don't know how to answer a certain question, be silent and find your peace and the words you need will come. Obviously this doesn't really apply to math questions. It's more of a conversational technique, whether inward or outward. "Once certain things are revealed, you won't forget them or un-know them." Ever feel like you've had a life-changing epiphany? Have you discovered something about the world or yourself and it was so great that you feared you'd forget it all and wake up as if from a dream? I have.  I've gone to sleep for over a year wit...

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It is absolutely asinine to give someone who hates license to carry a weapon. I mean anyone and everyone. Weapons are for obtaining food or sport or self defense. That's all. And self defense should be unnecessary. But here we have sick fucks who wanna rape and murder and rob people and inevitably, someone wants revenge. This is why I pray. I pray for peace. Talk about a catch 22. Tbh, I wish guns didn't exist. They're kind of fun to shoot but we'd all be better off without them. Name an animal you can't kill with a bow and arrow. All we do with chickens is cut their heads off. The guillotine was more humane, for crying out loud. I hate killing anything, even roaches. I still eat meat. See? There's a small percentage of people whose values align with their mission, let alone their actions. It's human nature to be hypocritical. If you break the word down, it means slow to judge yourself, quick to judge others i.e. the pot calling the kettle black. We...

Self talk is important. People will tell you you're crazy for doing so, but hey, have you ever had an actual thought? Have you ever wondered something, asked yourself a question, whether aloud or in silence and subsequently answered it? Guess what? You're NORMAL. I'm ticked right now because I'm tired of portraying myself as this loony bin bound bimbo. Honestly, I'm way smarter than that and I need to tell myself to fuck off about posting excessive photos of myself and the like. I do it to build my self confidence because I have a difficult time recognizing my own reflection and it's become a sort of coping mechanism. I'm going back to writing, and it's going to be mostly offline from now on. I've made a grand total of $6 and some change on Google AdSense but I won't see any money until I earn at least $100. I don't have time to wait for that. I'm twenty-six years old with no health insurance or money and a case of Bipolar Disorder ...

My inner child is a bright shiny soul With joy to spare fir all who care Or don't No tears for Santa, no fears for four wheelers, "Chill out, guys." That's what she says As the wind blows her light hair That turned dark.

Austin living in the heart of Houston when this photo was taken. I got $2 at Half Price Books amd bought this gem, a light, refreshing IPA, bro. I'm back in the ATX area and ready to begin classes at Aveda tomorrow, sitting on the front porch with cousin drinking Best Damn Cherry Cola and listening to the crickets and secadas serenade us before bed. It was a high flying, fast drive here actually.  Heather drives like me (bats out of Hell these two). Goodnight to sweethearts and assholes alike.

https://youtu.be/u53bZRP1AXk This is ideal. Just take the wheel. Feel the road beneath your feet Spin and swerve and Hug that curve. Music makes our trip Complete. Bump up the volume; This jam is sick! I'm avoiding thinking Of sucking your dick-- With a quickness we turn like Fire we burn the petroleum Faster and easier than you can ever Go. Get up and woah, nelleh. Damn it fill good. Pancakes.