Stevi's Storied Life

I get the feeling that people may be wondering about my alternate name on Facebook. I didn't legally change it from Stevi Rae Alsdorf to Lilith Elizabeth Gray. I adopted the name as a means of identifying with my mystical side. Lilith is portrayed in mythology as the first wife of Adam who failed in her duties, became a demon queen and in some stories, eventually the wife of God himself. She's viewed as nocturnal mostly,  a trait I share. I admire the transformative nature of her lore and always liked the name. I got Elizabeth from my paternal grandmother's middle name and Gray from my mentor, who took me under his wing and enabled me to break free from a restrictive, toxic relationship, go my own way and meet one of my best friends. The full name is representative of my true nature in tarot, the Queen of Swords. Stevi is the baddest chick on the block, according to Urban Dictionary, but Lilith sees more in her than that. I needed to create an identity that would empower...

Here's some good advice I've received over the past couple of years, words of wisdom: "Don't beat yourself up and don't let anyone else beat you up either." We all make mistakes.  Learn from them and move forward with your head held high.  It's no use to be down about something that you can't change.  "Never use the words 'I don't know.'" If you don't know how to answer a certain question, be silent and find your peace and the words you need will come. Obviously this doesn't really apply to math questions. It's more of a conversational technique, whether inward or outward. "Once certain things are revealed, you won't forget them or un-know them." Ever feel like you've had a life-changing epiphany? Have you discovered something about the world or yourself and it was so great that you feared you'd forget it all and wake up as if from a dream? I have.  I've gone to sleep for over a year wit...

Says it all.

It is absolutely asinine to give someone who hates license to carry a weapon. I mean anyone and everyone. Weapons are for obtaining food or sport or self defense. That's all. And self defense should be unnecessary. But here we have sick fucks who wanna rape and murder and rob people and inevitably, someone wants revenge. This is why I pray. I pray for peace. Talk about a catch 22. Tbh, I wish guns didn't exist. They're kind of fun to shoot but we'd all be better off without them. Name an animal you can't kill with a bow and arrow. All we do with chickens is cut their heads off. The guillotine was more humane, for crying out loud. I hate killing anything, even roaches. I still eat meat. See? There's a small percentage of people whose values align with their mission, let alone their actions. It's human nature to be hypocritical. If you break the word down, it means slow to judge yourself, quick to judge others i.e. the pot calling the kettle black. We...

Self talk is important. People will tell you you're crazy for doing so, but hey, have you ever had an actual thought? Have you ever wondered something, asked yourself a question, whether aloud or in silence and subsequently answered it? Guess what? You're NORMAL. I'm ticked right now because I'm tired of portraying myself as this loony bin bound bimbo. Honestly, I'm way smarter than that and I need to tell myself to fuck off about posting excessive photos of myself and the like. I do it to build my self confidence because I have a difficult time recognizing my own reflection and it's become a sort of coping mechanism. I'm going back to writing, and it's going to be mostly offline from now on. I've made a grand total of $6 and some change on Google AdSense but I won't see any money until I earn at least $100. I don't have time to wait for that. I'm twenty-six years old with no health insurance or money and a case of Bipolar Disorder ...

My inner child is a bright shiny soul With joy to spare fir all who care Or don't No tears for Santa, no fears for four wheelers, "Chill out, guys." That's what she says As the wind blows her light hair That turned dark.

Austin living in the heart of Houston when this photo was taken. I got $2 at Half Price Books amd bought this gem, a light, refreshing IPA, bro. I'm back in the ATX area and ready to begin classes at Aveda tomorrow, sitting on the front porch with cousin drinking Best Damn Cherry Cola and listening to the crickets and secadas serenade us before bed. It was a high flying, fast drive here actually.  Heather drives like me (bats out of Hell these two). Goodnight to sweethearts and assholes alike.

https://youtu.be/u53bZRP1AXk This is ideal. Just take the wheel. Feel the road beneath your feet Spin and swerve and Hug that curve. Music makes our trip Complete. Bump up the volume; This jam is sick! I'm avoiding thinking Of sucking your dick-- With a quickness we turn like Fire we burn the petroleum Faster and easier than you can ever Go. Get up and woah, nelleh. Damn it fill good. Pancakes.

I'm a forever nerd. Proud of it.

My appeal for poetry comes and goes I can't shake the urge to simply write prose Yet somehow I rhyme And sometimes I sing For better or worse I've found my king The wands are long As my dreams from which I wake Term them prophetic, Blame the pills I take Bliss is elusive But this one might stick.

  You coulda been gettin' down to this...sick...beat I made!! I've been playing around with Music Maker Jam. It's fun.

Singing brings joy to us all.  Even if you think you can't,  you may do it in your car or the shower when nobody else is around or even subconsciously under your breath while performing mindless tasks. Whatever the case, I hope you dance too, Faith Hill. AMEN!

This fearsome little bugger, Nugget, needs his nails cut. My inner groomer wanted to whip out my clippers but alas, they aren't on me. It's a sunny day in Austin and I'm rolling with the Cerus team. #Counterstrike, bruh. Life is good. I met with my case manager for mental health today and things are looking promising. Gooday, mateys! I just might go be a pirate again. SU is but a half hour away.

I have an idea for a book on fuckery in all its various forms of charades and shenanigans. First, let's see the Urban Dictionary definition: 7 Fuckery Its a versatile word used in many sitautions where theres someone (or something) whom is acting idiotically. The word was created by a man named Kingsley Russell but wouldnt have the status as it does if Sandy&Betty hadnt made it so popular especially in Europe. (Do have the effect which is wished for preferably use CAPSLOCK when writing this amazing word) When your teacher yells at you for no reason , That is FUCKERY Science is a subject made out of FUCKERY Woodshop is also a subject of FUCKERY #fuckery #idiot #jerk #stupid #dumb by Fuckery March 31, 2011 So, this should be interesting. I previously posted a photo of my former boo-thang (at least in my head) and his new love with "FUCKERY" as its caption. I feel terribly about this now, although I doubt it reached either of them dire...

Fresh pack of stogie And Bics from Valero Ziggy in Walden And kitty off somewhere.... Over the rainboooowwww

Corsets and new friends. It's important to keep trying new things.  There's a good, friendly vibe here. Michael Jackson is playing...Smooth Criminal indeed.

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"Just givvit tree fiddy, it'll go away!"

I found this gas tank on Hwy 105. Once I saw a dog get hit there. I stopped for her, but I drove backwards for this mile.

Mix - The Killers - Human: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RIZdjT1472Y&list=RDRIZdjT1472Y

Don't be an asshole

Wish you could see this place. I'm finding it hard to believe I'm in Heaven. Love is all that I need. And you found it there in your ♡. It isn't too hard to see WYD IN HEAVEN

Mix - Stevie Ray Vaughan - Pride and Joy (Studio version): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0vo23H9J8o8&list=RD0vo23H9J8o8

I stayed in the hospital for 10 days.  HCPC is a good place. In my own defense, I have a 125 IQ according to some free online test I took the other day and have little to no appreciation for cops showing up at my house as I innocently vent my frustrations about life to the wind, then swiftly into my house once they rolled up as per call from neighborhood passersby undoubtedly.  The average IQ is 90, in case you weren't aware. Iam technically gifted, as well as talented but I'm no Einstein (162). I sawsed all over the cops and used words like "fuckery," which one of them kept repeating to himself, bemused. My point is, this could happen to anyone, and the suburbs are basically hell.  My mother takes pain meds because of a botched back surgery in 2009. It's not her fault whatsoever, in case you were wondering about that one.  I am sometimes resentful towards her for originally suggesting antidepressants for me back in 2008 when I medically withdr...

This is pitchy but I got soul and shitty mic status...whuddup old black mac. #sawsin on sangin

Hotel motel holiday inn, cuzzins. "They'll be going down Spencer."

All I want is FRIENDS WHO DON'T WANT TO FUCK ME. A 41 YEAR OLD FUCKING SUPPOSED US MARTIAL TOOK PICTURES BEHIND MY BACK OF ME URINATING ON THE SIDE OF THE ROAD, WHERE HE SOON LEFT ME.

HYFR

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This is a 1964 or 6 idqr...FREAKING AWESOME SAUCE VOLVO. My neighbor, Ulf, is a former aerospace engineer or something to that effect. He's pretty much the definition of baller. I convinced him to take me for a spin. This thing has all orginal parts and pieces with the exception of the sound system. Bad to the assery.