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 I figured out that I had become an enemy of love. 

Me last night

Something I wrote just now



This was me a few months ago. I'd decided to shave my head again having sexually interacted with another man I really hadn't wanted to know in that way for more than the night. 


I now vow to not allow myself to go there again. 

I thank all my friends and fam for understanding. 

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