Knowledge Tangent

Sometimes I think it's all a big conspiracy. Life, I mean. I don't want to be a conspiracy theorist though. When things happen, it's like, "Well, I called that one. See? I told you that shit was going to happen." You can't just take things at face value, and say, "Huh. That's cool." I can't fucking do that anyway, for the most part. I want there to be some kind of deeper meaning behind everything. Nothing is coincidence. Everything happens for a reason mapped out in the vast cosmos.

There I go philosophizing about life again. Why are we so focused on what life is? What it means? What it's for? All we really know for sure is that we're here right now, in my case writing these words, hoping to feel a bit more enlightened when I'm finished.

I think it's this quest for enlightenment that keeps us going. We want to know everything we can, even those things we don't really want to know, the things we wish we could cleanse our minds of, just forget it a la Eternal Sunshine.

After all, knowledge is power. They burn certain books for a reason. Knowledge equates to experience. You don't necessarily have to do certain things yourself in order to learn whether it's a good idea or not.

I'm going to go all Genesis on you real quick. Let's go back to the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. Before we tasted that fruit, blissful ignorance, er, innocence, was all we knew. God created everything, enjoy it, but don't question it. Is that too much to ask? Just be, guys. Then along comes this little snake who got a bitch thinking. Fuck. We're naked. And afraid. I've never seen that show. Don't really want to.

Anyway, my point is, with our combined powers of reasoning on what is good and evil, we should be able to kind of collectively figure this stuff out, right? Not so much. The world is not black and white. There's really nothing or no one in the world who is 100% pure good or evil. It's all subjective, which can be confusing. That's why we have so much chaos within not only our institutions, but our minds. There's a subtle political statement in there somewhere, I promise.

It feels like the more I learn, the closer I get to just throwing my hands up in the air and saying, "I don't know shit." That's a different tangent entirely though.

I just got super distracted by a Gnarles Barkley song that popped into my head, and I don't know if I can successfully put an adequate ending on this post. So, I'll leave you with the video.